[ How does he say "I'm a colossal fuck up" without saying those words exactly? ]
…You know how Elsword is dating Doctor Add? [ Maybe not a great way to start this. ] Elsword and I were just… hanging out. And I accidentally kissed him, and now I feel really guilty…
[ Her own eyes light up for a moment, full of excitement - but they soon dim upon realizing this was real and not a fictional novel. ]
Ah, well I am most certain you know why it happened - I did not know you were also polyamorous like most of my people. [ She just kind of assumes - - ? ] Oh, but do you mean that... Ah! Does ADD not know? Oh that I see... [ She is following her own train of thoughts somehow... ] That is quite the predicament - it is not unfortunate though, but it is something I can imagine hard for you.
[ She pats his head. ]
How do you feel about it all...? I know... I know you said guilty, which I understand why - perhaps you can speak to ADD then? As Elsword is his partner, is he not?
I was sort of hoping… this could just go away and I wouldn't have to talk to Add about it at all…? But I don't know how to just… erase it. I didn't mean to do it or anything. [ He is just… wildly impulsive, and apparently has feelings for those boys. ] I even told Add recently that he has my full loyalty, a-and now it feels like I broke that, but I don't know how to tell him I didn't because— I wouldn't! A-and it wasn't what I was trying to do and—
[ Huffs. ]
…I guess I should tell him before he finds out somehow, huh…?
If they are your feelings, you mustn't try to push them away. [ Caoimhe shakes her head, and red locks of hair bundled at her side in braids begin to bounce. As she speaks, she already begins to play with the one long lock of hair tied behind his head. She starts to thread it into a braid as she looks at him. ] It is okay that you feel them, I am most happy that you do! Mhm, but what is most important, is what you do with them now. You cannot push them away, and that said... If Add is hurt and in pain, its okay... He may be if you tell him this, but it is better if these words come from your mouth then it is another.
Especially if you love him, and respect him. That is what we are taught, our words flow with warmth from the life of our hearts. What we speak unto others, or even into the air - has a weight... It's important... So don't... Don't forget that? Don't be afraid... It is normal from what I have seen, for instances like this to occur. Sometimes, people can make things right and sometimes - the pain someone feels... Makes things far too much to deal with.
But either way, you must face them and you mustn't run from them! They are your beautiful feelings after all!!
[ Caoimhe chimes with a slight singsong tone to her voice, when speaking the last sentence. As if she truly is proud, that Mizuki is coming into his own feelings and wanting to understand them! ]
I… [ Oh, she’s so excited about this, which does actually make Mizuki feel a little better, but he’s still just… a little guilty, and a little on edge. Especially because he’s getting pangs on jealousy from somewhere else. ] I don’t think you understand, Caoimhe. It was impulsive and stupid and I just really respect both of them. I don’t love them romantically or anything like that. That’d be weird, anyway…
Mizuki... But you have this habit of putting yourself and your feelings down, if you can't think that they are beautiful even if they are bad - how will you come to learn more about yourself? [ She is still braiding his hair. ] It's like a water spout - or a river... And a beavers damn. Rather than let it flow naturally, you are building a wall to contain it - where else will it go?
[ Mizuki is absolutely leaning into Caoimhe while he braids his hair because Rubie forgot to include this last time because mobile tags are HARD. It reminds him of when Susie would braid his hair, giving him the occasional trim and making sure his hair never got too unruly. She would do well here, he thinks. She could help him cut those budding white leaves from his hair, too… ]
I'm not— No, this is different, Caoimhe. That's the problem. I'm not… [ Huff. ] I'm not bottling up anything. I'm being honest, and… at least… I think I am?
… It's hard to explain. I love a lot of people here at the Grove, it's just that my respect for Add and Elsword is a little bit higher because they're heroes. I-it's a bit like having an idol or looking up to a mentor, you know? That's all it is.
Hmm... Is that so[ She is looking at the leafs we totally forgot they are there. She wonders why they are there - those shouldn't be there. SHe is a little more concerned than usual. ] Are you sure?
[ Is her question, to place a sense of finality to it. Then, after he's given his answer she will say: ] Do you want to go talk to him together? I can come with you, if you are nervous.
…No. I don’t know what I would tell him. Besides I-I think this is really fresh, and I don’t know what I would tell Add if he tried to ask me why I did it.
…
Is it okay if I just stay with you for a bit? I can help you with chores or… we can just cuddle or something?
I understand. [ Caoimhe gives him a little head pat. Taking the understanding that Mizuki wanted to try to move on from it, and think about other things. She begins to look over to the unfolded pile of sheets she was in the middle of tidying away, ] Do you want to? I just have to finish folding these and then place them away.
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…You know how Elsword is dating Doctor Add? [ Maybe not a great way to start this. ] Elsword and I were just… hanging out. And I accidentally kissed him, and now I feel really guilty…
I didn't mean to, I don't know why it happened?
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Ah, well I am most certain you know why it happened - I did not know you were also polyamorous like most of my people. [ She just kind of assumes - - ? ] Oh, but do you mean that... Ah! Does ADD not know? Oh that I see... [ She is following her own train of thoughts somehow... ] That is quite the predicament - it is not unfortunate though, but it is something I can imagine hard for you.
[ She pats his head. ]
How do you feel about it all...? I know... I know you said guilty, which I understand why - perhaps you can speak to ADD then? As Elsword is his partner, is he not?
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[ Huffs. ]
…I guess I should tell him before he finds out somehow, huh…?
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Especially if you love him, and respect him. That is what we are taught, our words flow with warmth from the life of our hearts. What we speak unto others, or even into the air - has a weight... It's important... So don't... Don't forget that? Don't be afraid... It is normal from what I have seen, for instances like this to occur. Sometimes, people can make things right and sometimes - the pain someone feels... Makes things far too much to deal with.
But either way, you must face them and you mustn't run from them! They are your beautiful feelings after all!!
[ Caoimhe chimes with a slight singsong tone to her voice, when speaking the last sentence. As if she truly is proud, that Mizuki is coming into his own feelings and wanting to understand them! ]
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because Rubie forgot to include this last time because mobile tags are HARD.It reminds him of when Susie would braid his hair, giving him the occasional trim and making sure his hair never got too unruly. She would do well here, he thinks. She could help him cut those budding white leaves from his hair, too… ]I'm not— No, this is different, Caoimhe. That's the problem. I'm not… [ Huff. ] I'm not bottling up anything. I'm being honest, and… at least… I think I am?
… It's hard to explain. I love a lot of people here at the Grove, it's just that my respect for Add and Elsword is a little bit higher because they're heroes. I-it's a bit like having an idol or looking up to a mentor, you know? That's all it is.
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[ Is her question, to place a sense of finality to it. Then, after he's given his answer she will say: ] Do you want to go talk to him together? I can come with you, if you are nervous.
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Is it okay if I just stay with you for a bit? I can help you with chores or… we can just cuddle or something?
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